Pain in my ass.

I took so many meds lately. I'm tired of being sick all the time. I had fever for third times in a month and now fucking swollen ankle. What is wrong with you? Never know how to take care of yourself. Painkiller and injection in my butt won't heal anything. Crying alone in the middle of night till morning because you just can't stand the pain. You look at your phone and about to call your mom but it is hopeless. I won't disturb her sleep tho. Cry and cry till you fall asleep for almost an hour. But the pain's back. And now i realize, I'm all alone. 

p/s: Thank you D for sending me to clinic.