To a better place, far beyond. I am not good enough to be a person. It's only my soul and my body! But deep inside, I'm not good for anyone. I can feel that I will be this lonesome for a quite long time. I told mom that I didn't want to get married. She replied who wants to take care of you later. I said I wanna live with you, I wanna stay by your side. If I die before you, mom asked. I didn't respond to her question. She was right and as a mother she always right. I never felt down like this before, there's something bothering me. Something that beyond my control. Allah knows and I really need your guide. Show the sheen to the right path. I am so weak. I need a guide.