I must say that October treats me badly. Everything happens with no apparent reason. It's hard to get through this month without someone around you, to hear you, to say "you can do it" and to lend you a shoulder. No one's doing so, and yes because I don't ask for it. All i need right now is fucking long holiday and I've been waiting for that moment in ages. Dear November 4, i can't wait any longer. My life is so miserable and...can i be excused for the rest of my life?